I hardly ever come around here these days...I just didn't have much to say or so I thought. But could it be, I had lost my voice? My will to express...maybe. There are times when I'm confounded with things that are too personal to be talked about--times when I think no-one will understand. Even if they do, who keeps a secret these days anyways. I must be crazy to think talking here is personal. But somewhere in my heart, I feel secure in knowing that readers would just come by, read, wish me well and move on with their lives.
You see, I'm planning to settle down with the guy I love in another 14 days. In two weeks. But we are STILL sorting out things. Does this happen to people? We've been dating for 3 years now and thought we knew each other well enough to last a lifetime. But it's been about 3 weeks since we have been discovering a lot about each other...mostly negative. Does the pressure of a wedding bring out the worse in couples? I think it does....It has not been a happy 'planning period' for me...Is there any bride out there who have enjoyed planning her wedding? I SO want to know...what I feel is just not right--why must I go through so much pressure? so much unhappiness. But I know that once we get through this phase, it's 'live happily ever after' time for us. I just need some extra courage, patience, and wisdom to take our lives forward.
