Happy Birthday!

My dearest,

How I wanted to be with you on this special day...just like the way we did on my birthday...I wanted to hold you tight and tell you how much I love you. I wanted to sing the birthday song for you in the sweetest way ever. However, know that I'm conscious of you with every single breath, you are with me in her heart, in my thoughts, and today, I celebrate 'YOU'...the person that you are. I whispered a 'thank you' to your mom and dad for nurturing the way you are. Singing praises to God for bringing you into my life.

Today, I wish you good health, happiness, success and a life that is wonderful and beautiful just as you are. A life worthy of you.

Happy Birthday sweetheart! I love you very much. This much--* my hands wide apart*

Yours, missy 

notes

Counting the stars
Nestling under the moonlit night
Is impractical
Is passé
Me being fairest of all
Is not true
Because I have pigmentation
All over my face
You my hero, my prince
A knight in shining armour
Fits only the fairy tales
You don’t even like riding horses.

When you tell me that
I’m not the prettiest of all
But the loveliest for you
I know you are stating facts
When you shout at me
That I’m driving you in sane
Nuts, draining you
I know, you are just being polite
It’s more than that?
When you tell me you hate me
I know it’s just for that
Very short moment
When you tell me that
I make you the happiest
The saddest
Oh I so believe you.

When you write to me
That you’ve worked all these years
To make me happy
To give me everything that I want
My heart flutters
And smile like princess do
When you insist 
That you could be trusted
For life
I tell you I do
For life
When you whisper
You love me
With all your heart
I cry.

Hurt

I dreamt

That one day

Someday

Admidst the crowd of winning heads,

Shall my name be heard

That my voice be exalted

I hoped with a stirring soul

That I be rested on the purple seat

With hundreds nodding at my side

But here I stand 

And feel

The flakes 

Of my dreams 

Falling all over me

things I'm happy about-2

1. Talking things over with mono
2. The cool weather always make me happy--It's winter!
3. Wallie deciding to go home and help mom and dad with the house
4. Sis's family plan to move into our new house
5. Mom and dad, they seem to be having a great time at home
6. Finalising on a new school to deploy EFF
7. Tipping the old auto driver
8. Not eating outside. have been eating very well at home
9. Minimal tummy problem
10. Being in touch with mo's family
11. Being able to buy good clothes often
12. Mo's coming back earlier than planned :)
13. Mo will be with me for his birthday.

promise

For the hands that hold me and keep me from falling

For the lips that whisper wisdom upon my folly

For the ears that listen when I have too much to say

For the feet that walk towards me when I cannot move

For the eyes that see beyond my sinning soul

For the arms that shelter me from lonliness

For the heart that loves me

Here is to you, I give you mine

For eternity.

past

I remember those days

When I waited to catch you

in glances, in stares unawares

I remember those nights 

when you would walk by

in denims and hooted pull overs

I would tilt my head 

To make sure you are around

Around enough

to make my day

make my night 

I remember, it used to be enough.

 

more things I want to do...

While doing the meme, the rule was to write only 7 things I wanted to do...but it turns out I have quite a few more things that I want to do before I die and I thought I might as well put it up here.

1. Teach in a university
2. Act in a movie, one of those that doesn't get released in theaters but goes for international screening *wink wink
3. Learn to play the guitar and perform in a concert
4. Write books and become famous
5. Campaign for an election for someone I trust to bring a change to the Naga society
6. Walk around the streets of Paris in a trench coat, muffler, knee length high heeled boots.
7. Take my family on a fancy vacation
8. Vacation in an exotic island with my loved one where very few people reside--eat their food, learn their language and swim at night
9. Own a cottage that has a kitchen garden, flower garden and a stream flowing in the backyard
10. Walk up the aisle with my father in a white gown on my wedding day
11. Learn to wear the Saree and cook delicious Indian food
12. Become a columnist for a magazine or a newspaper
13. Own a walk in closet with really nice clothes, shoes and bags
14. Do something so that there'll be no child labor and beggars in India
15. Learn to bake cakes and cook Italian food
16. Learn dancing with my loved one
17. Read the Bible (through and through), Koran, Bhagavad Gita and Buddhist & Jain text
18. Attend Hillsong's Praise and Worship concert
    
19. Live in New Zealand or .... for a couple of years
    
20. Learn to play chess and beat Mo in the game
21. Maintain a consistent weight through out
    

email

I woke up with the usual sound of the alarm set on my phone but decided to sleep for another hour. But was up within a few minutes, made myself a hot cup of tea and settled on the bean bag with the newspaper. I opened the window and I could feel the cold breeze blowing in---aww! How it brings the Christmas touches....It feels a little cold but I don't want to wear a sweater coz the feeling is so divine and joyful. Last year, at this time of the year I was gearing for my Christmas vacation, shopping and more shopping for family back home. Hola, I got gifts for 56 people! That’s how big my family is.

This morning I decided to write an email to you and start my day with that but the yahoo mail went kaput and I didn't want to use the other mail account. I only relate to you with Yahoo! You might wonder how my little heart keeps track of all these minor details but Mo, that's just the way I'm. :) I plan to write a lot today, a couple of posts for EFF blog, reply to some pending emails and my profile for a Magazine--did I tell you? They want to feature me as one of the young education enthusiast. I'm honored indeed.

I also have to do my assignments which I plan to submit on Monday. Exam starts on the 20th which is a Thursday, a week from now. After my exam, I would like to finish that book for good! You know how long we've been sitting on it.

I wish to have some good time with you....once you are back... I need you to get the Christmas tree--it's in the cupboard way above the ground and help me decorate it. I need you to give me a shoulder rub for all the writings I'd be doing. I need you to come back safe and smiling. You know how devastating these VC meetings can be :) I need you here. with me. and soon.

meme

I like memes and here is another one stolen from Bellezza :)

7 Things I Did Before:

1. Cycled everyday for almost three years

2. Wrote letters to mom and dad and a whole of others while in college

3. Wore red lipstick

4. Contested in an election and won (college)

5. Thought I was the smartest of the lot

6. Was a Sunday school teacher and was very active socially

7. What people thought of me mattered

7 Things I Do Now:

1. Write for my blogs, research papers, and a book

2. Talk ideas and implement them.

3. Walk around on campus instead of cycling

4. Pay rent, bills and cook--read fashion blogs and buy better clothes

5. Not socially active, likes to be in my own space--and is not wary about what people think of me because I know who I'm and what is best for me.

6. Educating a bro, sis and a thousand others soon

7. Love children like never before, because of my two nephews.

7 Things I Want To Do:

1. Write more, write books

2. Travel more...live abroad for a couple of years

3. Have children of my own and give them exotic names :)

4. Make EFF a success

5. Learn Telugu

6. Make my pigmentation disappear

7. Become an author or a professor

7 Things That Attract Me To The Opposite Sex:

1. Confidence

2. Intelligence

3. Good dresser/ good shoes and jeans

4. Great in public speaking

5. Well mannered

6. Commitment

7. Wealthy

7 Favorite Foods:

1. Naga food:

• Smoked pork cooked with Anishi
  
• smoked beef chutney
  
• Dried fish cooked with mashed potato
• Mixed vegetables cooked with bamboo shoot and dried fish

2. Sambhar and chicken curry from Sweetu’s

3. Salads/ boiled vegetables

4. Grilled cubes of chicken and Pastas

5. Oats with ready made dal only because Mo makes it for me when I'm very hungry

6. Rice, Dal, mango pickle and eggs (sunny side up)

7. Tea with salted cookies and bujai

7 Things I Say Most Often:

1. “I’m hungry”

2. "I miss my nephews”

3. "What plans for lunch?”

4. "Do we have class today?"

5. "I have tummy problem"

6. "I’m so stressed"

7. "If it works out....."

longing

Like the stars that glitter with the glimpse of twillight

dewdrops gushing down with a touch and tingling my toes

with every sound of the heart beat in the stillness of silence

is the joy I feel when I'm with you.

Pune trip--

I have a list of 'things to do' on the right hand side panel--things I should be accomplishing before I welcome the New Year. Hardly 50 days to go and am not anywhere close! But then, when have I EVER checked my list of things to do?? Perhaps that's one reason why I'm so stressed out at the end of the day. Not because of handling too many things but for not doing the things I should be doing. I always leave things unfinished, unsettled and that leaves me dissatisfied. 

However, to save me falling from graceland, and to keep me sane, I visited a new city! And that's one Checked!

Pune is a lovely city in Maharasthra-- a home for people from all over the world. I stayed with my friend who I was meeting after 10 long years—and in my four days stay; she had friends from Korea, Iran, U.S, and Nepal! Perhaps the acculturation of so many different cultures makes the city much more friendlier than most of the cities in India. I could at ease roam around in my shorts without inviting any awkward stares from people. No one came up to ask me if I was from China, or Japan. I noticed that people were least bothered and that was such a refreshing relief after all the ‘stares’ and ‘whistles’ we have to handle here in Hyder

abad.

I especially liked the shopping spree I went about, with so many choices and convenient location….an entire street of lovely clothes and shoes and bags! the sandals made of velvet and straw just for Rs. 50 was a real treat.

But commuting was such a pain, unless you have a car, life would be difficult. ALL the auto rickshaws (Taxis) have tampered meters and for a 500 meter ride you end up shelling out 30-50 rupees. That’s when I vowed to be nice to the auto drivers here in Hyderabad…yes, they are a pain in the ass sometimes esp. when they want to travel according to their convenience and not yours, but they are not rude and thanks to the digital meters, they don’t cheat you.

The best part of the trip was catching up with my dearest friend. There is something about childhood friends…there is so much to talk about…but 10 years is

 a long time to be apart and out of touch…I still have a lot of things to tell her…perhaps I’ll have to wait for her vacation to Hyderabad early next year.  Over all, I came back refreshed, recharged and a happier person.